"...and purge my heart by the Holy Spirit, from the dross of my natural corruption, that I may with more freedom of mind and liberty will serve thee." George Washington
In hindsight, I understood Washington's words. For whatever reason, (actually I was tired from a 11-12 hour work day, and I didn't want to think, but it was too early to go to bed) an urge to watch this movie erupted within me. I started watching it, but then I stopped. I headed upstairs and talked with Nancy for a while. We were remembering things of our past as she was debating throwing out cards from our wedding 22 years ago. The urge still flamed inside ,if not heightened, for that conversation gave me a second wind. Thus, I fulfilled that flame and watched the movie about this boy feeling lonely and deserted for the summer and the power of hidden secrets.
I understand the power of Washington's words, "purge my heart... that I may with more freedom of mind." The possibility of watching that movie engulfed my mind. I could not rid it of my mind. Admittedly, I did not pray hard about it. I didn't want to. Jesus said, "Everyone who sins is a slave to sin." The spirit of entertainment enslaved me.
The positive morals of the movie didn't outweigh that I should not have watched it. I knew I should have been still and silent for the evening. However, I knew in my heart that I wanted an escape - an escape from thinking about an upcoming meeting and from thinking about a problematic situation. I wanted to avoid my challenges.. I didn't want to think anymore. My body was worn out. Thus, I allowed my sin nature to act rather than the Holy Spirit.
Washington's prayer should be my prayer which should be your prayer. We need the Holy Spirit to cleanse our hearts, so that we may live in the freedom of the Holy Spirit. Those other desires from our corrupted nature will engulf us if we allow. May we pray George Washington's prayer: "purge my heart by the Holy Spirit...that I may have freedom."
Through Jesus' death and resurrection we have power to say "No" to those urges, if we respond by faith in that moment. Through him we have the grace to have victory. If we fail and do not have victory, God's grace through Jesus forgives as we confess and repent of our sin. God's grace has us covered. But God desires us to live in freedom and has made it all possible. Let's aim for freedom.