I am sure you know how it works. "Your heart being led by your eyes" means that you make decisions based on what you see. If you see something you like, you try to get it. If you see a chocolate ice cream cone, you try to make one or buy one. Or, you make choices based on your sight. You see a movie advertised on TV, so you decide to watch it. Or, you may choose to talk with a person based on their appearance, or vice versa, you may choose to avoid a person based on their looks. I don't know if we can comprehend how many decisions we make are based on our eyes and what something looks like.
Well, that Sunday night at prayer team, I shared those words of Job. I challenged us to pray the words of Paul, that we would "live by faith and not by sight. (2 Cor 5:7)" What an awesome time of prayer. We praised God. We cried out to God for our congregation and our community. I don't know how you word it, but it seemed God was there and heard our prayers.
Then came the crash. After the time of prayer, my son asked to watch football. As he headed off down the steps, I thought I would watch a little with him for comradery sake. Then as he headed off to bed, I remembered that the Hallmark movie was on . Before you know it, I watched the whole thing. I didn't expect to do that. But, I made a decision based on my eyes.
The next morning I realized I did exactly what Job said he didn't do. After enjoying such a special time with the unseen God in prayer, I wasted my time entertaining myself with my eyes. The satisfaction in watching TV wasn't even close to the satisfaction of prayer. Entertainment was and is only a false substitute of the delight we can have in God. How could I so easily fall into the trap I just read about? I could have kicked myself. Fortunately, God was gracious and has forgiven me.
I have learned some lessons from this episode of life:
1) Prayer is so much more fulfilling than other forms of entertainment. I don't know if I recognized such a contrast before.
2) It is too easy to live by sight and not by faith. It is instinctive, if not addictive. We watch TV, shop, eat, and so much more, based on sight and not by truth.
3) In the words of a Rich Mullins song, "We are not as strong as we think we are." Thankfully, God's grace and love picks us up after we crash and burn.
P.S. Do to many upcoming tasks surrounding Christmas, I will probably not be blogging until afterwards. So, have an excellent celebration of God coming to us as a man in Jesus Christ.
Peace be with you!