I wonder though what God is doing. Why do I say that?
- Most of my work at the flower shop is done by myself. The flowers are not very communicative.
- My basketball connections seem to have disappeared. I usually play against me, myself, and I, but they aren't stiff competition.
- My bi-vocational work life has left me without some of my local pastoral friends. We just can't connect anymore. Several of them have come and gone. Who has the time?
- My sons have their own jobs and friends. They are not around as much.
I am thankful for the wife God has given me. I very much enjoy her. I get to connect with her about 1 to 1 1/2 hours per day due to our work schedules. I am thankful for my congregation, but my bi-vocational work has greatly cut down on those connections also.
Why do I write this? More for my therapy rather than anything else.
Yes, I wonder what God is doing. Here is this boy who was voted shyest senior boy in his graduating class from high school mourning the disappearance of his relationships.
I guess at the moment that I write this I have two responses: 1) First of all, I need to make use of this time to build my relationship with God stronger. 2) I need to begin establishing a whole new set of connections. In fact, I need to stockpile them, for they come and go.
If I don't do these things, it will be me, myself, and I.