When I arrived, someone amazingly greeted me outside. Usually, I have to go to the door of the office, ring the bell, and wait for awhile. Not this time. When I opened the back door of the truck and climbed into the back, I discovered what had been wrong. I still had two boxes of flowers in the truck from the previous church. I thought the number of boxes didn't seem right, but I never checked. I refused to listen to what was going on within me.
Well, as we pulled away from the church, we made a right into the alley. The alley was clean and wide, except for a car parking in it at the other end. I thought I could carefully pass it on the car's left. However, what I didn't see was that to pull out onto the street, I had to not only avoid the car parked at the end of the alley, but a car parked on the other side of the street. My turn needed to be sharper than expected. Remember, I was driving a moving van.
I missed the car in the alley, no problem there. However, I had to now focus on the car on the street. I was making a right turn onto the street. I don't recall all the details now, but as I took that right I heard a large "boom." No, I didn't hit a car. I hit a fence post. As the front of the van swung right, the back end swung further left than expected and hit a fence post at the very back corner of the van. I pulled over, checked it out, and drove off "kicking myself." I wondered how my boss would respond, what it would cost, and why did this happen.
As I pondered this, I was driving back to the church to re-deliver those two boxes of flowers. I wondered if I would have listened to the voices within me if I would have even got into that situation. I wrestled with that, but as I did over the next hours (Yes, I "stewed" on this for awhile), I concluded that it really wasn't a timing issue. I believe God was giving me a gentle consequence for refusing to listen to him. My pride didn't stop and check what I sensed was wrong. And though the voices inside told me to pull over, I didn't. Now through the bump, I finally pulled over.
Hopefully, I've learned my lesson to learn to listen. I don't know. I can be so hard headed at times.
I thank God for his gentle reminder of the need to listen to him.